Sunday, April 20, 2008

Chris 3

I started chatting with Chris... (Damn! Another one. Too many in Sydney. Let's call him Chris 3) about 4 months ago. It was quite friendly and even we sms each other when I was travelling, but it stopped and we restarted chatting after a few weeks.

One night he said he had the next day off from work and he wanted to do some exercise. As I was working out then, I told him to join me the next day and he accepted, surprise!

The next day we met and went to the closest park. He joined me for some minutes of jogging, but he had to stop and waited till I finished. As he waited I tried to make some company for him, we had some conversation and he even told a couple of jokes.

We went back to my place (A crappy one back then) and he decided to take a shower. He stripped his t-shirt off and went into the bathroom. I liked him physically (as much as one can like who you just meet), he seemed to be a cool guy, he was showering and would be back into my room soon... shirtless! I had to make a move, I thought.

Hence he came back into my room shirtless, I said anything, played for a second with his nipple piercing, leaned and kissed him. Big mistake! He stood there motioless and emotionless. I regretted what I just did and begged for excuses. He just said "I didn't expected it". He dressed, we said goodbye and he left.

I sent him a message excusing my behaviour once again. He replied saying it was fine, but I never got a reply again from him until last week, when I saw he was online and asked him in a message what would his reaction be if I wouldn't have kissed him, but tried to fuck him. His reply was very short and straightforward: "It would be very very much worse... for you".

Another one of my nice gay aussie experiences in Sydney!

Friday, April 18, 2008

Back on track

Many weeks have passed as well as many men.

One of the latest deceptions was Chris (Another? I guess so, a different one for sure). We started sending messages on a gay dating (cruising) website several months ago, but we never set a date. A few weeks ago he reappeared and proposed to meet for dinner.

The proposal was good. We met and went to a thai restaurant he knows, had dinner, he bought wine and went to his place for a movie. His flatmate was travelling, but now I wonder... is he really his flatmate?. Anyway, we sat cuddling in his living room to watch the movie.... well, I watched the movie, he slept. Once finished the movie, we went to his bed where we slept naked together. No sex so far.

Next morning we couldn't resist and had sex. As usual I wore a condom which I realized it broke after we both came. No dramas. And he dropped me close to Uni on his way to work. "I'll call you later tonight". It was a very nice date.

After a few days I send him an sms with no answer. Some days later I send him a different message on the dating website. I found out yesterday that he deleted his profile there.

What happened? Cumming in him scared him off that badly? Is his flatmate his boyfriend? Did he feel close to commitment after cuddling? or after offering me a job (During the dinner, an actual job)?

It was nice to meet him, even when I wasn't too excited. But as usual, I'd like to know the reason.