One of those (many) lazy days, I met Mark on the chatroom. Well..... he found me. I saw his picture but I thought he was too cute and he wouldn't pay attention to me.
BUT he opened a window for private conversation with me!!! Lucky you, I thought (yeah, right...). We chatted and agreed to meet on a busy corner in the city. That first day we couldn't meet, but a few days later we could. Just for a few minutes. He was on his way to work and had only time for a quick conversation.
I didn't like him that much after that first meeting because of his personality. Anyway he seemed to be a nice cute guy. About 10 minutes later, I received his first sms. After an hour I received about 30!!! Even he asked me to think on moving close to him so it'd be easier to meet, and take our relation to the next level....
And I thought I was quick!
I've been avoiding him for weeks, but finally he asked me if there was somebody else. It was the best chance to disappoint him! Yes, there's somebody else, I replied.... I never thought it was possible to make a scene by sms, but he did!
The most amazing thing is he is still after me, even knowing of the 'boyfriend''s existence, looking for a no-strings-fun relation.... but at the same time he says he misses me (?!).
The only thing I really hope is nobody thinks I am nearly close to him... 'coz I'm not!
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Sunday, September 23, 2007
Not worse... just different... too different...
Chris saw my profile and sent me a message saying that he would love to have sex with me. Loud and clear. Flattering, isn't it? He's not bad looking, so I sent a message saying that I would like to meet him sometime. Who wouldn't do that?
Nothing strange so far.
BUT, Chris replied quickly. We exchanged MSN IDs. He can travel to Sydney from Bateman's Bay if I lend him 60 bucks for gas. Or we could wait till he have money. Too pushy, too insistant... I knew he could never show up again, but I decided to bet in his favour and make the deposit. After all he send sms's like "Please forgive me. I will pay you back. I feel so bad now." I still have it, lol, like a reminder.
He showed up. Under the rain he arrived to my place and he acted charming and loving. The hours we were together were hot and charming. He made a lot of compliments, smiles and plans. Too many for such a short time. Late that night he said he had to leave and go to his friend's before she went to bed. OK. He left naming plans to do something the next day and under the rain with my umbrella.
The next day I only received this message: "Someone crashed into my car and now I am at the police station sorting out the problem. I will have to call you later sorry". I am still waiting for that call.
I've called him a couple of times since then tho. But he never says anything. He knows who's calling. He blocked my MSN 'coz he's never been online since then. He erased his profile in this website. And of course, that money is lost.
Even another guy from the same website turned out to know Chris. I told him to tell Chris to contact me, which he did. Now Chris is avoiding this other guy also.........
Go figure.
Me
Nothing strange so far.
BUT, Chris replied quickly. We exchanged MSN IDs. He can travel to Sydney from Bateman's Bay if I lend him 60 bucks for gas. Or we could wait till he have money. Too pushy, too insistant... I knew he could never show up again, but I decided to bet in his favour and make the deposit. After all he send sms's like "Please forgive me. I will pay you back. I feel so bad now." I still have it, lol, like a reminder.
He showed up. Under the rain he arrived to my place and he acted charming and loving. The hours we were together were hot and charming. He made a lot of compliments, smiles and plans. Too many for such a short time. Late that night he said he had to leave and go to his friend's before she went to bed. OK. He left naming plans to do something the next day and under the rain with my umbrella.
The next day I only received this message: "Someone crashed into my car and now I am at the police station sorting out the problem. I will have to call you later sorry". I am still waiting for that call.
I've called him a couple of times since then tho. But he never says anything. He knows who's calling. He blocked my MSN 'coz he's never been online since then. He erased his profile in this website. And of course, that money is lost.
Even another guy from the same website turned out to know Chris. I told him to tell Chris to contact me, which he did. Now Chris is avoiding this other guy also.........
Go figure.
Me
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
About the truth
I met Thom 5 months ago and he'd turned me into his bitch and I was aware, but the last time it was ridiculous.
The first time we met he was pretty charming, we went to his favorite beach, had lunch there, then other beach and walk around. At the end of the afternoon, he took me home and there we made out. He told me he wasn't looking for a full-time relationship, which was good enough 'coz we were busy enough. Later he said that we should go to the Blue Mountains, or even weeks later he said that we should we should go to Queensland. Isn't it easier to be clear and say "I'm looking for a fuckbuddy" and keep it simple?
After that we've met 4 or 5 times, always in my place, or better in my bed. To summarize it's been a "blow'n go" everytime when I wish I'd been blown once or he have a good asset to blow, but it isn't like that.
A change was a good thing to expect, but........ Fool of me, the change arrived. One day he told me to meet him in the city (meet him in a public place?), go somewhere for a drink (a drink together??) and go to his place afterwards (HIS PLACE???). Ok, I accepted. We met really late, about 11pm, looked for a place to drink something, but he drank nothing. He looked just anxious to go to his place to... rest?
So, right after my beer, we took a taxi to go to his place, he looked for his flatmate and when he made sure he was sleeping (!) he took me into the apartment. We went into his bedroom and he started to undress. I followed. Turned the light off and the routine started again. After 5 minutes (maybe 10, ha) he came. Then I put myself together and prepared to sleep.... it was about 1 am, was quite far from my place and thought I could stay.
Suddenly, a phone rang. He spoke: Hi...... where are you?..... I'm at home....... OK, I understand..... OK, I understand........ OK..... He said he had to go to his office because he had to give access to an account from his office to other global office in Asia and he should stay till 4 am there.....
Ok, so I should go with him..... And I stood up to get dressed.
What's wrong? he asked. I'm getting dressed, I answered. No, you can stay and wait for me.
Ok, so I went back into bed.
But.., he said, I should tell my flatmate. he could freak out. You shouldn't wake him up for that. I won't leave the room, I said. But..... blah blah blah
So, the most convenient thing for me was to leave. Ok, I'll go with you. OK!, he said, you can go with me to the office.
Ok, let's go.
But..., he said, I'm not sure if the guard will let you go in. Ok, I'll go with you and I'll go to my place from your building. Your office isn't too far from my place.
But..., he said. I think it's closer if you took other way, should I call you a taxi?
WHAT? I thought. Obviously he's not going to work, he just wanted me to leave his place no matter how. I offered him the easiest way he could take if he was going to work (Going with him in the same taxi and just drop me at the end), but he clearly wasn't going out.
Did he made up the call? It's too much effort, but now I believe it. It was just the perfect timing. And after three weeks, he just hasn't showed up. He knows he did wrong, reeaally wrong. Better for me... and for him.
According to friends, it's just the repetition of previous stories from other people. Ridiculous!
Truth saves effort, time and money! His effort, our time and my money in this case. Practice it, aussies.
The first time we met he was pretty charming, we went to his favorite beach, had lunch there, then other beach and walk around. At the end of the afternoon, he took me home and there we made out. He told me he wasn't looking for a full-time relationship, which was good enough 'coz we were busy enough. Later he said that we should go to the Blue Mountains, or even weeks later he said that we should we should go to Queensland. Isn't it easier to be clear and say "I'm looking for a fuckbuddy" and keep it simple?
After that we've met 4 or 5 times, always in my place, or better in my bed. To summarize it's been a "blow'n go" everytime when I wish I'd been blown once or he have a good asset to blow, but it isn't like that.
A change was a good thing to expect, but........ Fool of me, the change arrived. One day he told me to meet him in the city (meet him in a public place?), go somewhere for a drink (a drink together??) and go to his place afterwards (HIS PLACE???). Ok, I accepted. We met really late, about 11pm, looked for a place to drink something, but he drank nothing. He looked just anxious to go to his place to... rest?
So, right after my beer, we took a taxi to go to his place, he looked for his flatmate and when he made sure he was sleeping (!) he took me into the apartment. We went into his bedroom and he started to undress. I followed. Turned the light off and the routine started again. After 5 minutes (maybe 10, ha) he came. Then I put myself together and prepared to sleep.... it was about 1 am, was quite far from my place and thought I could stay.
Suddenly, a phone rang. He spoke: Hi...... where are you?..... I'm at home....... OK, I understand..... OK, I understand........ OK..... He said he had to go to his office because he had to give access to an account from his office to other global office in Asia and he should stay till 4 am there.....
Ok, so I should go with him..... And I stood up to get dressed.
What's wrong? he asked. I'm getting dressed, I answered. No, you can stay and wait for me.
Ok, so I went back into bed.
But.., he said, I should tell my flatmate. he could freak out. You shouldn't wake him up for that. I won't leave the room, I said. But..... blah blah blah
So, the most convenient thing for me was to leave. Ok, I'll go with you. OK!, he said, you can go with me to the office.
Ok, let's go.
But..., he said, I'm not sure if the guard will let you go in. Ok, I'll go with you and I'll go to my place from your building. Your office isn't too far from my place.
But..., he said. I think it's closer if you took other way, should I call you a taxi?
WHAT? I thought. Obviously he's not going to work, he just wanted me to leave his place no matter how. I offered him the easiest way he could take if he was going to work (Going with him in the same taxi and just drop me at the end), but he clearly wasn't going out.
Did he made up the call? It's too much effort, but now I believe it. It was just the perfect timing. And after three weeks, he just hasn't showed up. He knows he did wrong, reeaally wrong. Better for me... and for him.
According to friends, it's just the repetition of previous stories from other people. Ridiculous!
Truth saves effort, time and money! His effort, our time and my money in this case. Practice it, aussies.
Saturday, September 15, 2007
Disappearance #1
I met once this young cute blond guy in a chatroom (Does it matter which one? They're all the same) and we exchanged MSN IDs. We chatted several times during one or two weeks and finally we agreed to meet one night at his place.
I arrived to his small cold studio. It was winter and it was raining. He talked on and off for an hour or so. It was Friday night, and it wasn't that late.
-Do you wanna stay tonight?
-Can I?
-Sure!
-OK
So, we went to bed...... some foreplay...... Damn, no condoms! No problems.... for him I made him enjoy (I think) while finger-fucking him. At least he looked like really enjoying it. Even during the act he wanted to see me again.... with condoms!
The next day he woke up, told me he had someting to do, I woke up, put myself together and kissed him goodbye.
Then one lame call and a couple of unanswered calls indicated he disappeared. What happened????????
Probably the same thing that happened when I met this guy for lunch in Surry Hills and gave me a ride to the place I had a meeting because I was late, but he only answered a sms after 3 weeks.
Or the same thing that happened to this other guy I had dinner with after several nights of nice long phone calls, who can't even say 'Hi' on MSN.
It would be nice to know it.
Me
I arrived to his small cold studio. It was winter and it was raining. He talked on and off for an hour or so. It was Friday night, and it wasn't that late.
-Do you wanna stay tonight?
-Can I?
-Sure!
-OK
So, we went to bed...... some foreplay...... Damn, no condoms! No problems.... for him I made him enjoy (I think) while finger-fucking him. At least he looked like really enjoying it. Even during the act he wanted to see me again.... with condoms!
The next day he woke up, told me he had someting to do, I woke up, put myself together and kissed him goodbye.
Then one lame call and a couple of unanswered calls indicated he disappeared. What happened????????
Probably the same thing that happened when I met this guy for lunch in Surry Hills and gave me a ride to the place I had a meeting because I was late, but he only answered a sms after 3 weeks.
Or the same thing that happened to this other guy I had dinner with after several nights of nice long phone calls, who can't even say 'Hi' on MSN.
It would be nice to know it.
Me
Not a word more............
What's the point in disappearing after a date?
A few things you can conclude after that are:
1. You are as ugly as you dont deserve to be answered your phone calls, even your sms or emails.
2. You're too annoying!
3. You said something really, really bad.
4. You DID something really, really bad.
5. All of the above.
More surprisingly is that silence when it comes after a quiet nice date. Something had to be really bad.
And the subtle silence is not clear enough to get the answer. And you have no clue if you can improve something, not for your date (He's lost now anyway) but for yourself.
Why is it that hard to say someone you don't wanna see him anymore? Any spoken excuse is way better than that weird silence.
Guys! Learn to close circles! Don't make assumptions. Loose your uptight ass and let go simple words off your mouth like "See ya around, mate". Simple and direct.
Me
A few things you can conclude after that are:
1. You are as ugly as you dont deserve to be answered your phone calls, even your sms or emails.
2. You're too annoying!
3. You said something really, really bad.
4. You DID something really, really bad.
5. All of the above.
More surprisingly is that silence when it comes after a quiet nice date. Something had to be really bad.
And the subtle silence is not clear enough to get the answer. And you have no clue if you can improve something, not for your date (He's lost now anyway) but for yourself.
Why is it that hard to say someone you don't wanna see him anymore? Any spoken excuse is way better than that weird silence.
Guys! Learn to close circles! Don't make assumptions. Loose your uptight ass and let go simple words off your mouth like "See ya around, mate". Simple and direct.
Me
AIM
Hi
The aim of this blog is to expose the rawness in the gay community of Sydney, Australia. The facts will be exposed as objectively as I can, so you can get your own conclusions.
Sorry, I'm shocked 'coz I wasn't used to it, and I don't think it's healthy to get used to it, if you can.
So, this blog has been created purely for peace of mind. If you feel insulted, you should consider to improve your behavior. But mainly I hope this help other gay men to lower their expectations before coming to Sydney.
Me
The aim of this blog is to expose the rawness in the gay community of Sydney, Australia. The facts will be exposed as objectively as I can, so you can get your own conclusions.
Sorry, I'm shocked 'coz I wasn't used to it, and I don't think it's healthy to get used to it, if you can.
So, this blog has been created purely for peace of mind. If you feel insulted, you should consider to improve your behavior. But mainly I hope this help other gay men to lower their expectations before coming to Sydney.
Me
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